Journal # 16

Dont make me Hate YOU.......Leave Me Alone

Belum selesai masalah yg menimpa diri ini...ada lagi masalah lain yang datang.....OMG....how i wish to be invisible to everybody kan?......

Few days before, i received a sms from my ex-GF. it's been long time that i didnt contact her coz she's already married to the man she choose and i dont to 'disturb' them. Short story....she's having problem with her husband. Her feeling towards her husband now getting faded....maybe because of both of them were busy of their works i guess...but i dont care....its their problem and not mine.

These few days she keep texting me and make me feel uncomfortable actually coz it remind me back to our past....during our brakeup, it take years for me to heal from everything.....she just disappear from me last time....and after few month of waiting, she called me and told me that she already married.....gosh...i really break my heart....

Hancur dan sakit hati saya masa tu......saya jadi pendiam and cepat marah that time......saya jadi 'org rumah' saja. Dun want to go out and hang out with my friends. Everytime i think of her...my heart was hurts.....really hurts. I just keep telling myself that 'Adam..its OK....' but actually its not ok.....she make me cry at night......

What make me feel bad and angry was, her husband called me and shouting at me from his phone. Asking to stay away from her and leave his family alone.....what the hell men.....im not going back to her after what she's done to me....no way....even in 100 years...i will not take her back......shitttttt....

My blood presure was at the max level at the time.....i was really angry to her coz she told her husband that we're getting back together.....OMG.....in your dream la.....mana2 suami pun mmg akan naik darah ba dgr cerita mcm ni..........KIMBETTTTTTT....... yang lagi sakit hati ni, saya langsung tidak ada peluang tuk membela diri saya.....when i called her..she dont want to answer my call......i think she know what im going to say to her.......

saya cuba kol the husband but he dont want to answer my call neither...... saya tidak mau d tuduh menjadi perosak rumah tangga org lain.....today i go to Digi centre and block her number already......she cannot sms or kol me after this......takut juga la saya coz mana tau the husband bawa geng and pukul saya......palis-palis..... i did sms him and explaining to him.....dia percaya atau tidak...its up to him la......

Now i tried to calm down ......

semua memori lama kami skrg semakin hilang and kalau boleh saya nak lupakan semua tu......saya mahu terus delete dia dari diari hidup kalau boleh......but i cant juga coz she leaves me a big scar...... skrg ni ada dua PARUT besar da.....

Dun worry...i already forgive both of you...hope your marrige will last........that is my pray to both of you...

But What You Did is Wrong and You Make Me Hate you ..........Just Leave Alone...... I have my own life now.....find someone else ........